On Sleep and Game Addiction

I went to bed too late, like 4am. Now I have a bad headache for not getting enough sleep. For what reason? Playing Warcraft DOTA in the middle of the night... WTF? I feel too old for playing computer games. I think I am addicted to it. That's why I don't have it on my computer, but I borrow the laptop from a friend, who has it installed. Otherwise, I would be playing way too much. The reason being:
1. If you win your ego gets a boost, so you feel all good about the "accomplishment" and want to do it again
2. If you lose, it's even worse, as you don't want to stop playing until you get a win. Who wants to finish something defeated??? So, eventually you win and you are back to 1.
The time goes by really fast and since every game is usually a multiple of 30mins, you are stuck for large time intervals without thinking about the real world.
When I get out of the vicous cycle I feel guilty for wasting my time in such a stupid way.
I also think that people that are very competitive get sucked into it much more. It's all about the competition. When I compete in something I am good at, I get really concentrated and feel as if I am "alive". I guess that's how it goes with a lot of guys. We are just competitive creatures.


P.S. So, I did go out on Friday. I had a good time at the Fat Black Pussy Cat, here in NYC. Unfortunately, I realized that I girl I like is back with her boyfriend. I thought they would break up, but alas they are together. I am happy for her and sad for myself :P